A business partner left this Rhino with me when he left San Francisco to return to Thailand to live for the next six months with his girl friend . She is an attractive and seemingly competent young woman of thirty. Barney is one year younger than Kamaroh. I don't envy him anything; he is not near as cool as is Kamaroh. But, what I do envy is that he helped design and paid for her to build herself a nice Thai house on land she owned and he did this for cash. She bought materials and supervised construction while he spent his mandatory six months here in the States sending her money to build on and looking at the pictures she sent him of the progress. Now he is back there with her and her parents and daughter and they are moving out of some sort of livable substructure into their big new home. I always savor imagining how delightful it must be to have the means to express ones creativity full bore!
What does the Rhino and the Title to this piece have to do with anything I have written here. Probably it has nothing to do with it, they just seem to fit with how how I feel lately; dragons and roses are mostly always about when I am yearning for the lady who is the real life personification of my muse..
I have been focused on this rhino quite a bit since I discovered it in a box of Barney's things he left for me. And, I started thinking why could it not be my new totem. Why I have the two birds tattooed on my chest that happened when I was a young man in the Marine Corps I don't know. One person suggested that perhaps birds were my totem. I haven't thought about that in a long time; but given the changes I am, and have gone through in my life, and the toes my relatives believe I have stepped on along the way; as it stands, I am pretty sure the rhino is the time relevant totem for big-footed Kamaroh.
